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I HAVE BEEN IN LUV WIT DIS ONE DUDE THAT I HAD LOST MY VIRGINTY TO AND MAYBE I ONLY THOUGHT I WAS IN LUV CAUSE I LOST MY VIRGINITY TO HIM.     BUT WE HAD PLANNED ON GETTING MARRIED AND HAVING KIDS AND GETTING A HOUSE AND STUFF AFTER I GRADUATED AND I THREW IT ALL AWAY AFTER SKIPPING SCHOOL AND GOING TO COURT FOR TURENCY AND HE THOUGHT HE WAS IN TROUBLE WITH THE POLICE AND HE WENT BACK TO GUATATMALA, YES HE WAS CHAPIN NOT HISPANIC BUT CHAPIN THAT IS DIFFERENT PERO FOR THOSE WHO SAID THAT I WAS A WHORE AND T HAT I WAS FUCKING UP MY LIFE FUCK YALL . AND THE BAD THING WAS IS THAT HALF OF YALL WAS MY FAMILY AND FAMILY AINT SUPPOST TO DO THAT I MEAN COME ON U NOW . I WOULDNT DO HAVE SAID ANY OF THAT TO ANYONE LIKE THAT IN MY FAMILY IF THEY DONE THAT TO ME U NOW WELL YEA . WHEN I WAS IN LUV WITH THIS DUDE WHICH YEA HE HAS A NAME AND HIS NAME IS CARLOS AND HE WAS LUVING AND CARING AND RESPECTFUL . AND WHEN I NEEDED SOMETHING HE GOT IT FOR ME WHEN MY MOM DEBORAH NEEDED MONEY HE GAVE IT TO HER. WHEN WE WERE HUNGRY HE BROUGHT US ALL OUT TO EAT WHAT EVA WE WANTED BUT ITS TOO LATE CAUSE I BELIVE THAT I JUST LET THE MAN OF MY DREAMS WALK RIGHT OUT OF MY LIFE WITHOUT SAYING A WORD TO HIM ........  WELL GOODBYE FOR NOW BUT NOT FOREVER .

                                  LUV ALWAYS JESSICA HALLER